Sunday, December 04, 2005

永遠的夢露



年近歲晚,商場裡到處是售賣新一年月曆的檔攤.除了一般風景名勝貓狗明星外,在不當眼的角落,必定有一兩張瑪麗蓮夢露的照片在向你微笑.

Marilyn Monroe,本名Norma Jeane Mortensen.生父身份不詳,母親患有精神病,幼年在孤兒院和寄養家庭中渡過.二十歲時和第一任丈夫分開後,便在四五十年代的荷理活掙扎求存,憑最原始的本錢爬上夢工埸的巔峰.

喜歡夢露,是自從讀到她死後,第二任丈夫Joe Dimaggio連續二十年每星期兩次在她墳前送上一支玫瑰;和第三任丈夫Arthur Miller如何四十年來絕口不提她生前一點一滴.

怎樣的女子,能贏得離異了的另一半這樣的長情和尊重?

夢露俘虜了全世界的觀眾,也俘虜了美國最出色的男人(Dimaggio是國寶級的棒球員;Miller是國寶級的劇作家;還有和甘迺迪兄弟疑幻疑真的緋聞).最後卻敵不過心魔,讓生命一步步走向毀滅.她到底在追求甚麼?

Truman Capote曾寫了篇很美麗的短文,記述一個和夢露相處的下午.在文章的結尾,有這一段對話:
Marilyn: Remember, I said if anybody ever asked you what I was like, what Marilyn Monroe was really like - well, how would you answer them? I bet you'd tell them I was a slob. A banana split.

Capote: Of course. But I’d also say...

(The light was leaving. She seemed to fade with it, blend with the sky and clouds, recede beyond them. I wanted to lift my voice louder than the seagulls' cries and call her back: Marilyn! Marilyn, why did everything have to turn out the way it did? Why does life have to be so fucking rotten?)

Capote: I'd say...

Marilyn: I can't hear you.

Capote: I'd say you are a beautiful child.
1955年,夢露的事業如日方中,但Capote已經察覺到她正慢慢向雲端飄遠.

是不是成功來得太快,她不知道該如何生活下去?抑或她只是個受傷的小孩,要不斷逃離現實去忘掉齷齪的童年?

1962年8月5日,夢露在家中服藥過量身亡.沒有人知道她是不是自殺.四十三年過去了,Dimaggio和Miller都己離世.關於她的一切,無人能再告訴我們答案.

然而她仍然在微笑.

Goodbye Norma Jean
From the young man in the 22nd row
Who sees you as something as more than sexual
More than just our Marilyn Monroe
- Candle In the Wind

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